zieerah
the days can never get any better
Tuesday, December 8, 2009 ; 3:01 AM
i wanna know i wanna know
as for now. i miss Hidayah.
i really do. im not sure whats up, but she seemed different eversince i got back from HK :(
is it because i never tried to help her when she's facing problems ? hmm, lifes a miser without a best friend. im not a good motivator neither am i good at counselling or problem solving in terms of personal issues. its been 3 weeks since i last saw Hidayah.
i had a good unreasonable beating by dad. i wonder why too. i didnt retaliate cos i didnt wanna make things much worse. So i let him release all his anger on me. No matter how painful it is to get beaten up with a belt, i wont complain. Nothing is more painful then seeing your mum did absoloutely nothing while you getting beaten up. Seeing her cry and went back to her seat really hurts. alot. Looking at my swollen arm, hmmm. i have nothing much to say.