zieerah
the days can never get any better
Saturday, September 5, 2009 ; 2:02 PM
im still not over you
ive been rather hyper, cheerful, jumpy around school, outside, whenever im with my friends :) some said that im a lil crazy. ask my classmates. they got irritated but they laughed to what i do. i love making people happy:D like last night, Dayah&I were feeling blue. but after which, i manage to make her laugh her ass off. but haha, at times, when im moodless, they might ask why am i so grumpy. the moment they said that, i'll get over my moodless and get jumpy. even that nephew of mine calls me weird and crazy plus random. i cant be serious all the time. the reason behind it because, i need something to cheer me up and not let me think about it. i tend to breakdown in class due to having so much thinkings. when im quiet, it means, i need space to think. im actually tearing while typing this. i know, its kindaff silly for me to post such things but hey, a girl needs somewhere to let it out. i miss being a lil kid as there's not much for me to think about. but im already in my 2nd year of a teenage kid. but somehow i feel that, im taking things to easily and slowly. im not rushing. im just afraid of growing up.
right now, as some may know. i miss Terence. so bad. i mean, for once i thought i was over him, but i guess i couldnt. im not sure whats the thing about him that i miss. but i certainly know that i miss his sweet words and his tender touch. maybe bcos, ive never encounter the downs i had with him with anybody else. it was a challenge. but we manage to pulled it through. maybe, this is a lesson for me? i dont know. as much as the time i fell in love with him 4months ago, i still am. im happy if he is. im just hoping for the better.
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lesson of the day :
never put your hopes up too high as it might come and break you down.
look at the picture up there. look deep
tender touch♥
i cried yesterday. non stop. now im hurt. im crying again