zieerah
the days can never get any better
Friday, July 31, 2009 ; 3:24 PM
it got me thinking
i hope tonight's gonna be a good night.
for these whole week,
i've been really thinking alot.
i had a satisfying cry last night.
&i hope it'll be the last.
i cant go on like this. i really cant.
you know its hard to let go.
i didnt think it'll take this long to get over it.
literally, i havent got over it.
maybe just a little.
well, thats a start.
yesterday, i went back to school after school. i really miss everyone. but somehow, it doesnt really make a difference to them when im around. ask them, yourself. so, saw Hafiz&sat with him. talked about some stupid stuff which is really random. haha. i miss talking lots of shits with that cute guy. haha. decided not to go for Dance &met Zoorah at her workplace. we went to Ikea, bought stuffs for our room/house. Dad was being kinda nasty last night. but he wasnt towards me. he didnt talk to Mum. Mum doesnt even know why. then, he asked Zoorah if his spoilt watch is done repairing. Mum lost the warranty card so, Zoorah cant repair.
it goes like this.
Dad : eh, dah betulkan belum jam papa? [ eh, fix my watch already or not? ]
Zoorah : belum, Mama hilangkan warranty card nye. [ nope, mama lost the warranty card ]
Zoorah : belum, Mama hilangkan warranty card nye. [ nope, mama lost the warranty card ]
Dad : aahh, kau gi bayar jek lah orang tu ! *raised his voice* [ aahh, just pay the person lah! ]
Zoorah : Ura takde duit lah. [ i got no money lah ]
Dad : kalau tidak, bagi papa itu jam, papa buang sudah ! [ if not, just give me back the watch, i'll throw it away ]
Zoorah : buang ah ! [ throw ah ! ]
THIS IS WHAT HAPPEN TO MAN WHO HAS MONEY ! FUCK AH !
Wednesday,
i had Doa Selamat right ?
one of my Aunt's husband whom I DONT REGARD HIM AS MY UNCLE AT ALL, came.
just because i never smile at him, he critisized me. fuck him lah.
i dont fucking care if he reads this. cos i only know his daughter will read this.
please eh. why on earth would i wanna smile at you?
its not as if you're anybody to me.
muke aku macam orang mati sebab kau tak pernah nampak aku senyum?
gurau jek eh, Lan ? fuck it !
abeh kau pikeh muke kau banyak kacak ! muke kau macam orang setengah jangung !
dah ah eh, orang tuer. dari starting aku kenal kau, aku tak suke kau.
tawu kenape? sebab mulot kau itu terlalu busuk. tatawu jage perkataan kau eh?
aku maseh respect ngan orang tuer aku itu pasal aku diam sia depan bini kau !
kalau aku boleh, aku dah carik hal ngan kau.
kalau kau bacer ini eh, kau nak bilang satu keluarge pun, aku tak kesah, paham?!
dasar jantan takde perasaan.
aku critisize kau, kau buat muke, boleh.
kau critisize aku, kau kene bilang bapak aku uh eh, kirekan?
bapak aku pun tak kesah ah siak.
nobody in the family likes you lah. get that in mind.
when i said nobody, inc mak&bapak embah. ada paham ? -.-
so yeah. venting my anger out here. if i could say all these infront of him, even better. but i havent lost my respect towards my parents. lets just say that im nice enough to give him face ah. -.- okay, anger stops here.
its a Friday, im still grounded.
its the last day of July. &tmr's August.
was suppose to follow Seha to Far East but she cancelled the plan.
so yeah. nothing on a Friday.
dont let me go,
i miss you :(
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