Labels: i'll see you.

wow, Friday.
im left with today, Saturday & Sunday to complete all my homework.
PFFT~
i've been going out almost everyday & been coming home late this holiday.
my mum's nagging at me for it. -.-
but when im at home, she'll ask me why aren't i outside? weird huh?
i dont get my mum. lol
im gonna meet up with Haziq later on at i dont know where. he wanna eat, i wanna do my homework. ha!
did heymath yesterday. its really a headbanger, i tell ya!
&my holiday allowance is going to finish. i think my remaining could last me till Sunday (:
its still early. time check : 10.52 am.
hmm, im hungry. gonna grab something to eaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat :D

was awaken by Haziq's text. pfft~ -.-'
got up, got washed up. played the lappy while doing my homework. lol.
then, till Haziq called that he was downstairs, got changed and went off at around 4.30pm.
cabbed down to Downtown. waited for Daryll to pick us up. i mean, to go to the chalet.
ha, when i got there, someone's face changed. those who were there may know who ^^
fuck. went back to Downtown East, ate MacD's and went back to the chalet. slacked awhile.
Daryll, Haziq & I took a walk. &happen to walk by Gelare.
decided to go in and ate Chocolate Chip Waffle w/ 3 scoops of Ice Cream :D
Chocolate Overload, Cookies&Cream & Honey Crunch.
ha, yumm. my treat. since i dont have cash to share with Daryll.
hmm, then went back to the chalet, Gerimi's parents brought me food so i ate.
after eating, said goodbye to everyone &went for a walk by the beach with Daryll&Haziq.
decided to head home since its already around 9plus. bid goodbye to Daryll &i went off with Haziq taking 15.
Haziq took till Ubi &i continued homeeeeeeeeee.
currently chatting with nobody.
im uber bored. i cant get to sleep. that suck.
now, its 2.21am

i m i s s y o u .

got one from Hafiz's phoneee.
The other one was taken during my birthday.
Yes, way to much memories huh? the clock's gonna tick to 3am soon. Was chatting with Hidayah&Haziq about some stuff. I cant sleep now. Listening to 'kiss me thru the phone remix'
My phone vibrate then rang&flashes Terence's picture. O.o a surprised phonecall made by him just to ask if i've got Amsyar's number. Well, he knows i've lost all my contacts when i lost my phone&he could find some other skaters. Chatted for a lil while. Well, thats cos i was outside just now when he called. Hmmm, its been awhile huh? its gonna be 2weeks since the break up&its been a week since i last saw him. i guess i'll see him when school reopens. we wont be as close as before no more. Hmm. I miss him very much.

Labels: where have you gone to?

hey. yeah today.
not gonna do anything much though.
&friends been inviting me to tag along with them to the Beach Party at Siloso.
but nahh, i'll pass.
somethings up today, most may know what.
so, i dont feel like doing anything. hmm.
20th. does it ring a bell?
hmm, i wonder.

PS: im still thinking of you. yes, i wanna move on too but not right now. i love you still.

hey. i know i havent blog since Tuesday night. So yeah, here's an update.
I did pretty much nothing on Wednesday.
Thursday? Amylia's birthday. Met Haziq&Hafiz over at their house. Headed to Rivervale Macs to meet up with Munir&Amsyar. Went to 2n1's class pit. There was such a hectic commotion between skaters. Lol. Misunderstandings. I bought a new wallet&a new shoe. Lol. nightfall, everyone wants to head off for food. Went through the swamp, i think. Ha, scary much. reached Downtown saw Khairul Aqmal, Khairul Haziq&another guy i didnt see his face. Smiled&headed off home. got home, saw my cousins&nephews.
Friday, which is today. Waited for dad to head off for work before going out. So got ready&head off to Bugis. Met Haziq, Hafiz, Haiqal&their mum there. Went to shop for all 3 of their stuffs&headed to town to eat. after eating, Haziq was like wanting to buy his pants so his mum gave him some cash and asked me to follow him shop. they went home first while me&Haziq went back to Bugis. I bought 2 skirts, 2 shirts, belt&cardigan. Plus Famous Amous :D YUMMY ! Haha. Went to look for Haziq's pants&shirt. He got himself 2berms&his red stud. we went round&round for his t-shirt. But nooooo, nothing caught his eye. we got tired so, we finally thought of going home. he took the bus first. &so my bus reached like 20 minutes after. I got home at around 10.15pm just now. There's only the maid&one of my cousin at home. The rest went out. Ha. Tiredd~

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haziq called me out to accompany him eat. we went east coast. He hurried me out of the house. So i quickly went out of the house uh. Then, when i went down, i saw Terence walking pass me. he didnt see me yet. Soo, went up the tunnel to east coast, Terence turned. We were both shocked to see each other. I stopped awhile then walk off to Macs. Then, i turned, i saw him. We stood there looking around so awkwardly. till Haziq came, when in the Macs. they ate, i just look. Haziq went all like 'Dont you have something to say? The truth? The real truth? Not the fake truth?' then i was like 'uhh,no.' he wants to go sit by the sea. So, Haziq made me tell Terence everything. i did uh. after telling, there was a total silence. he apologized&there was a long silence again. He got a phone call&had to go. haziq&I made a move too. I sent Haziq to the bus stop then, went back home.

Hmm, it was useless talking to him anw. It doesnt change a thing. I still love you, Terence(:

hey.
So i decided to go for Haziq's picnic/bbq since i need to occupy my time moree. I just came back from East Coast. His friends were friendly(: so, met Haziq then had my late lunch at MacD's. Went back to the pit, they switched on music&dance like they owned the world. LOL. then, walked to Parkway Parade with Haziq. Bought butter, Haziq wants to change his Malaysia money to Singapore currency. but before that, i bought my Famous Amous. Ha! Walked back to the pit, ate some bbq-ed chickens. Then, sat by the sea with Haziq. his friends wanted to go&rent the swaveboard sooo, i decided to take viking with who else other than Haziq? Ha ha. Was boring uh. Just rode cos we got nothing better to do. Heh. after that, again, went back to the pit. I took my phone&sat by the sea by myself to catch some wind. suddenly thought of ... &after the days i held my tears up, it came rushing down like a downfall. Haziq came up to me&he saw me crying. He rushed to take tissue and wiped my tears away. while he was wiping it away, he told me 'tell him what you are suppose to tell him. dont cry, nazirah.' thanks, Haziq. I appreciate it alot(: then, his friends cheered me up&asked me to tag along sending one of them to the bus stop. After sending, went back and sat by the sea again. hmm. All of them came to me&joked around. I drew on the sand and sat beside my writting, &again, i brokedown. I was thinking too much already. My mum isnt helping. My mum is an irritant when she comes to talk about him. After all that crying, i went back to have more chickens(: soooo, waited for Haziq to finish playing with water, cousin texted that mum wants me home. Haziq sent me all the way to my doorstep(: haha, he wanted to salam my mum. Lol. I got home&he went back to the pit. Thanks again, Haziq(:


PS: Haziq is just my childhood friend who has always been there for me. We're just close friends. So dont think out of the box.

Labels: i miss you, love

hey.
as you all know about what happen recently between me& ... I wanna thank my friends for being there for me(: i mean, when im feeling down, they are always there tryna make me smille. I truly appreciate it. all i wanna figure out is, what is the thing that made me cried so hard for that someone for 2days straight. The past few days, ive been really moody. Its only yesterday that i got my mood back. Okay, no. Ive been eating. And eating. And eating. And eating. And eating. hmm. I really wish i knew what im feeling now. i have mixed feelings now. But i dont know whats the mixture of it. All i know is, that its not easy for me to forget one person in a couple of days. That, everybody knows. But why do they kept asking me to forget like that *snaps* hmm. i hope everything will be back to normal. Still, i want a comeback.

I miss you, love.

i swear this post got nothing to do with the tittle. Hmm. I have to do packing later. Will be staying at Marine Parade for a week or so. i need to occupy my time more rather than sitting in front of the computer surfing internet. Athirah's & Amylia's birthdays are coming in a few days. I've got no idea what to buy them. Hmm. i'll think of something, soon. i've been thinking too much when im at home. I've been holding up my tears for 2days now(: hopefully, i can do something to occupy my time and not thinking too much.
I tried eating non stop. but it didnt work. Even when im bloated, i still gorged myself with chocolates. I always thought that chocolate can mend a brokenheart but i guess my love for you is stronger than any ol' chocolates huh?
I want a great comeback.
Faster, please?

to Najwa :

thank you so much for your sweet post. okay, i cried while reading. all those crying i wasted on him, its worth a while. bcos, i know i wouldnt have met anyone like him. some people may say, that he was just playing with my feelings. i refused to believe. well look babygirl, i have my reasons of choosing not to believe. but, im not prepared to reveal my reason. i know, my friends including you are starting to hate him. he has his reasons to be like that. im guessing, he wasnt ready to tell me. i asked his friends, they said the same thing(: i cried too much already. dont worry about me, babygirl. im alright(: i love you too, girlfriend(:

my eyes aint getting any better.
noooo, im not crying.
i went for some electronic shopping for our going-to-be-renovated house with Mum&2nd sis at Best D in Century Square.
i bought a new pants.
i thought too much about baby.
mum kept asking me if im alright each&everytime i went silent.
electronic stuff for the house, aint my interest.
how can i not get bored and quiet?

friends, dont link me yet.
not now. noooooo.

i cried non stop yesterday when i got home from meeting Nurin.
i cried on the phone with Amylia&Athirah.
i cried while chatting with my friends.
till Momma got up and came to me.
still, i have yet stopped crying.
had a talk with Mum. she told me her pass experienced.
&she cried just by seeing me cry.
she told me she has never seen me so down like this.
neither have i cried so hard like this.
i cried to sleep last night.

i still love you, Terence